Thursday, February 17, 2011

Lone wolf

Hmmm.... Today was weird! Its 4 am, and I had planned on working on this assignment that needs to be submitted tomorrow... But facebook killed it; I saw some 'pics' that kinda disturbed me - and now I cant sleep, cant work... 3-4 years ago, I had made a vow to myself - never to get married... Not because I wouldn't find anyone (so why try, eh!), but because I felt it was gonna be too much responsibility - and mayyyyybe it would get in the way of what I really wanted to do... All that is bullsshit - look at me, I'm a fat broke single bastard, not doing what I want, but what I have to do... This society is a piece of shit - looking out is not the same as it means, looking out is looking at, ogling, staring and just scaring the shit out of the person till he/she does what they expected him to do... Life did not turn out the way I had expected, and I am to blame for half of those wrong decisions, but the society has to take the blame for the rest! God dammit - really some days... And now u see so many people getting hitched, in a relationship - thats another reason for the feeling within : life aint going nowhere.... It aint, I know it!

Dead as dead can be
My doctor tells me
But I just can't believe him
Ever the optimistic one
I'm sure of your ability
To become my perfect enemy

I'm rolling Sweets, I'm smoking sour
Married to the game but she broke her vows
That's why my bars are full of broken bottles
And my night stands are full of open bibles

I'm ridin solo, I'm ridin solo... Ridin Solo... Ridin Solo...
= . =

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Its so weird... There are songs that you don't like (read: hate) in the beginning, but some douchebag who may be your neighbour or has real good speakers keeps bellowing that number all the time, and suddenly you find yourself syncing to the song like it was meant to be... But I think thats common, everybody has those songs... However, just recently, I found a song that I loved so much I hate it now... And I dont know if this is common too, cos its happening with me for the first time! (ooh la la loo ser) But yeah, "Like a G6" comes across as a catchy hip hop track, which initially is fun cos u know they're talking about drinking and how this really hot Asian chick in red is going around town having a sip from everybody's drink, woah! Suddenly you find yourself downloading the song, cos the internet in ur hostel room sucks and it would be 'unwise' to keep that page open for as long as you wanna listen to the song just cos its buffered there alright... Now you're listening to it so many times your neighbours feel like the 2nd line of this post... And then you're over it, cos other songs have replaced it (Thank you Billboardgoddess) and that video lies in the "Music Videos" folder that you seldom close... Somebody else is playing it now, cos they're used to the song and now u realize "What a shitty song!" So they're talkin bout drinking, but c'mon somehow now it does not make sense... They're really boring you to death, and the only sanity left in the song is because of the electronic belted out by The Cataracs... You know, how you get to know about a person only later in life - I feel like that... Sad, it was a good track to begin with...

Social Media !! Hmmm.... Guess its the best way to advertise now... Even if you're a small company, all you gotta do is start a small competition with dare2compete or studyshare, and get vella mbas to participate, cos they're the best crowd-pullers - they've still got the student zeal but r gonna earn some big bucks soon... I was part of one competition myself, though it was a college thing, I realized the power of FB then, when u get ur friends to blindly like a page - it could be a "I love Justin Beiber" page and they would like it!! Class...

Somehow I usually think of blogging when I have an abstract thought in my mind, but as soon as you start writing the abstractness disappears... hmm!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Day begins...

The day was supposed to start with a PGL lecture at 06:45 am, but I could not attend it due to thigh problems (the PGP office couldnt have made it worse I guess) Then I went with Ashwani and Deepak to drop off his car for some troubleshooting, which could not be completed in the time we were around the service center, which meant we had to come back later on. So we got into a local bus to drive us back to IIM, but we got into a fight - and this post was supposed to be about that fight, but I realize I have no time to speak about it because of a real big deal happening tomorrow!! Lets see... Lets see... Sigh!!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

@)!!

Well its not everyday you get this feeling of putting some words in your blog. The last time I felt like writing was when I was late reaching home from Indore by 3 hours. But I was home then, and I wasnt going to waste another 20 minutes in Mumbai trying to make myself feel useless - I've got IIM-I for that! But today is different. Its a new year, and I can see that I have been a lazy ass all this time to have not posted since April :@ Blogging is fun, and you may forget a lot of points that you wanted to shower in the post when u had that thought of "aaj ek blog banta hai", but you also come up with newer things to say (like this one)

Sad to say, but the transition between 2010 and 2011 was very smooth for me. I came back from dinner and went to sLeEp!!! Not that I was looking forward to anything better than a game of cricket, but still, you dont sleep on NYD!!! At least I can tell people I took a nap in 2010 and woke up directly in 2011 (bah!!)

Ah, new year resolutions - the promises that you never have to keep... I think, other than losing 25 kgs, I dont have any major resolves... I also think I should eat right. Living outside home is a new experience, but it should not spoil your palette so badly (had to take a break while writing this blog coz I have loose motions, mummyyy!!!)! I also want to tour Japan, but a discussion with Ashu right now made me realize its possible only in 2012 (that is, if Japan doesnt drown or anything!)

Sigh!! I definitely need to keep my blog updated - for myself!!! Writing is bliss... You can write whatever you want... Oh yeah, that reminds me, a week before new years, I'd decided I will be honest and frank about everything I say or do. Its a tough one, dont think I'll last long...

Friday, April 23, 2010

JLT

Once I bet 5ooo Rs with my mama's friend Abhijeet on the point that Dark Knight still stood third on the IMDB Top 250 charts, in spite of knowing that Abhijeet was in the movie line and probably checked that list everyday. He bet it was sixth. I did not have the money to spare, but even then, I did not want to show my diffidence and lack of information. He was right; he checked it that very instant on his PDA leaving me tongue-tied and rueful for being an ignorant prick. Its not a great feeling, losing a bet or anything, but if you know your place before even playing the game, then it doesnt feel too bad, does it? He spared my arse and thankfully I did not need to take up an extra job to pay off my intentional inpudence! :)

For the last 3 weeks, I have been roaming the streets of Mumbai conducting surveys of unsuspecting citizens who run away or give you 'the look' unless you tell them you're a student. The travelling is the worst part - the measly 80 bucks I get for a day's travel combined with the super sensational sweaty summer ensures that I lose not less than a liter through my sweat glands! I even unintentionally followed a dog that was marking its area, wizzing on every possible vertical thing it could find, which made me sprint as I passed it by. The city is alive though, really on its toes, 'nobodys got time for noone' and getting somebody to hear you out is difficult especially if you're a guy, even more if you're fat and dont look like a student! Ah well, its been smooth so far and I hope it ends well.

Today I'd gone to Marine Drive to finish off the surveys for confectionery (I will be starting a new survey next week). Well, you meet different people there too. While many just like to walk or jog in the breeze that the sea brings with it, there are others who like to sit near the promenade and talk. You see a lot of couples cuddling out there too, and I tell you, its not a good feeling. Sigh!! Being alone at Marine Drive surely aint funny, and definitely not inspiring. But it is amazing, and sitting there on the concrete watching the sun set makes you forget the world for a good 5 minutes. God bless Mumbai...

Friday, March 19, 2010

Arbit

Blogging - what is that? Isnt that one of the techniques to virally market a product?

I remember when I decided to blog for the first time. I used MSN spaces for that karyakram (since many of my friends were using it then), and man it was fun. I had so many things in my mind waiting to explode and I felt there couldnt have been a better medium. But as soon as I started writing, the words werent coming out like I wanted them to. It was difficult trying to make sentences seem interesting, so that at least I would feel like reading them sometime in the future. Add to that the habit of using the chatting lingo, which I was still contemplating whether to use proper language from the beginning or come back and correct each and every word that was missing that uncaring vowel. But I decided that my blogs were not meant to be graded or valued, and nobody reads a blog keeping in mind the grammar or the order, so I just let it be (Its a pain to read now). But it sparked within me this interest to keep jotting down the things that had happened over the past few years, the incidents that I felt were worth putting on paper or the current happenings that were important to me. The motoblogs are something I will cherish for the rest of my life, as they tell of the experiences I had doing what I loved most in life - driving. Its a different story now, being away from my car for so long and having taken to riding bikes, I think that powerful feeling of gaining command over the road will never come back. Maybe a long drive with some good friends should be able to reestablish it.

A lot has changed since the last time I blogged (it was on this site, shifted to blogspot for no apparent reason). No longer self-dependent, I am pursuing MBA with one of the premier institutions of the country (My friend described IIM Indore that way on facebook, and I kept wondering how I should reply; but it didn't matter, some other colleagues did not hesitate in displaying their sarcastic side while replying to the comment). Just 10 more days to go, I will be completing my 1st year exactly 9 months from the day I first set foot here. Adding Hyderabad to the list of cities that I adore (Mumbai was the only other one), I really felt Indore would be as promising. Although there were the initial apprehensions, I have come to terms with this academic jungle consisting of both carnivorous animals called professors, some omnivorous animals that reside in a cave called the pgp office and then there's the herbivorous kind - us, that feed the carnivores and some of the omnivores! For me, this place has been everything but a learning center. I have tried to involve myself in almost every extra-curricular activity there is. My interest in sports has been rekindled again, and inspite of gaining a good 10kgs, I feel fit and energetic. Still, I'm dying to go back home now. A 3 month term is more than I can take; really feel like shit!! Got an exam tomorrow, and havent even opened the book. In fact, had 3 days holiday only for this exam, and still no motivation, not cos I know that the contents are not gonna help me in life 'ever', but just cos I dont want to, period.

Let me end it with some crap - Your body and mind will never work at full capacity if they are friends with each other. Make them fight and you will see them perform at their best!!

P.S: Needs some rest after the performance. Recently did a 42-hour-no-sleep-thing; supposedly I have entered depression.

Friday, June 12, 2009

4giv me Piyush 4 I have 4gotten

June 13, 2009: 0525hrs
Hmmm… Why, why, why!! Why is this world turning upside down for me? Why is the feeling that I’m going to die a pauper becoming stronger? Why is my forgetfulness getting the better of me? No answers!
This time its Piyush’ portable hard drive - the one electronic upkaran that he really adored. The one device that held his movies in folders arranged according to the rating assigned by him over a long and careful period of time. Rajat, why did you have to give me the hard disk to hand it over to Piyush! Why did I have to leave the hard disk at Kranti’s desk before leaving for home? Why didn’t Kranti look over his desk before packing his bag and give me a glimmer of hope by saying that it was there when we left? No answers!
I know that Piyush is going to freak out in the morning (or whenever I can muster up the courage) when I tell him this. He has never been mad at me; the best he’s hurled at me is a scornful look and some abuses muttered under his breath for whacking him too hard on his back. I was insisting on a fight club some weeks back, I guess we are going to see one after dawn tomorrow. It has been a sleepless night for me, literally too.
Once I recalled that I had (mis) placed the hard disk at Kranti’s desk, I turned to ask him if there was anybody in office who could check. His friend did that for us, uneventfully however. Then I heard some movie scene playing in (Piyush) Mittal’s room, and I thought to myself “GOD PLEASE LET HIM HAVE FOUND THE HARD DISK”. Alas, he was playing some movie on youtube, ‘since the hard disk was with Rajat’ (boohoo) On top of that, India lost to Windies. Some start to a weekend!
I met my good friend Dushyant online on Facebook. Dushyant, Deloitte FAS, was in office. I was thinking whether or not to go to office to check for myself when Dushyant asked me to drop by. I thought, two reasons better than one, let’s go. Kranti was asleep, his bike came in handy. I sped off to office in his bike, and after reaching there, chappa chappa chhaan mara for the HD but to no avail.
Met Dushyant @ Barista. He was his usual chirpy self. Talked about how things were finally shaping up for him, and all the remaining bakar. Chit Chat Chit chat, then his work. Got a Frappe, gulped it down, chit chat, twas fun. We chilled for around 2 hours; his boss finally came back with some response to his email; he sent all his already drafted emails and we were on our way.
I dropped him to his place and was home in the next 10 minutes. Poor Mitesh, I had to wake him up to get the door open. I came into my room and find both Kranti and Piyush cuddled up in Madan’s bed and my bed respectively. Power cuts are a pain owing to the rains and here we were in one, because of which our inverter-ed room becomes hot property due to the fans :P I go to Piyush’ room to pen this down, since it has been an adventure. It has been 4 hours since I left to find his HD, and unsuccessful as I am, I still don’t know how I will tell him. I will have to reimburse the amount, how will I ever reimburse the emotional value attached to it.